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Apr
29/08
I'm Not Happy ALL The Time
Last Updated on Tuesday, 29 April 2008 06:00
Written by Melinda
Tuesday, April 29th, 2008

Recently, due to hormones, I have felt cruddy. I just don’t want to be around anyone sometimes! Ever have that blah feeling and you just can’t put your finger on it… then someone comes along and either wants to pick a fight, prove they are right, or just explain and explain and explain when you just want to say “Leave me alone! Bug off! I do not care!”

Well, that’s how I feel this week. As a matter of fact, that’s how I have felt a lot lately. It makes me feel bad that I have these thoughts and feelings. But then again, I remember a time when I was overweight and most people would not give me the time of day because I looked FAT. I was FAT. They did not want to talk to me, need to ask me for anything, well you get the picture.

Now 135 lbs lost, and suddenly everyone wants to be my best friend! Guess what? I have found along the way of being nice and reaching out to people… there are people that I just do not like! And I am learning that it’s ok not to life everyone. It’s ok to not engage someone in a lengthy conversation because I don’t like them. Chances are, they don’t like me either!!

Now while I am genuine, and will engage in conversation, there are other times I just don’t feel good. I smile, say “How are you today?” Nod my head assuringly that I am listening… but after a few moments, I am ready to get back to work or about my tasks or business.

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Apr
28/08
Hormones Gone Wild
Last Updated on Tuesday, 5 January 2010 08:39
Written by Melinda
Monday, April 28th, 2008

Since my ninth grade year, I’ve had a series of hormone problems stemming from PCOS (Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome) and Insulin Resistance/Metabolic Syndrome. At that time, doctors were not as up to date in their treatments as they are now. But one thing I was placed on was birth control. After all, the main thing was to get my cycles regular. I’ve had some gynecologists say that it did not matter whether or not I had a monthly period. Now to me, this is a big deal. I hate having them, but come on! That’s the way our bodies were designed by the Creator.

For many years, I did not pursue treatment. I felt like a guinea pig in my early twenties because the doctors tried so many different approaches. I just got sick of the medications (I had a medicine cabinet full!) and said “Forget it all.” I did not pursue treatment again until the past ten years. As a matter of fact, my mother and I diagnosed myself with “Insulin Resistance” after perusing the internet for signs/symptoms. The medical doctor I was seeing at the time did not want to diagnose me with that until running a couple thousand dollars worth of labs. I kept asking him “Can you do the test to show whether I have Insulin Resistance?” As a last resort, and him being stumped, he ordered the test. Guess what? I was right.

Several years back, I had two roommates, both guys. I decided to take an even further step in finally having my period. I didn’t have one for a few years at that point. I knew that as soon as I started any treatment at all, Lord everybody should watch out! I knew that it was about to unleash the most terrible little demon inside of me… moodiness, emotional outburst, frustration, PMS or heck on wheels, whichever you choose to call it. I advised my roommates, thank Goodness they were best friends, “Now when I start taking these little pills (Provera), everything is going to change!” Josh, one roommate said later that I had never spoken the truth so much in my entire life than I had on that day! Needless to say, I suffered greatly with PMDD (the worst PMS you could experience!). Instead of one week a month, it was reverse….. THREE weeks a month! It made me feel crazy!

I lay this groundwork to say that I’m having my periods every two weeks now. I called the gyn’s office and have a morning appt today. Not sure as to what he will suggest, but where I used to never have a period, now I can’t seem to get rid of them! And y’all wonder why I can be so irritable, frustrated, anxious! LOL… Give a girl a break!

Now there are certain birth control forms that are best for gastric patients. My doctor suggested Ortho Evra patch but it is now causing me some problems. He also suggests Mirena, which is a device inserted into the body. My health insurance does not want to cover. I work for a Catholic Charities facility and they view this for birth control purposes only. This means that I must write a letter of appeal, presenting medical records, doctor letters, etc. to prove that this is the best resort for me. The gastric bypass further complicates things because of the malabsorption problem, not to mention the fact that I have taken many birth control pills and they either make me sick or cause PMDD emotional upsets. It appears right now that it was easier to get my gastric bypass and tummy tuck covered than it will be getting this IUD covered! And it has nothing to do with birth control at all. Instead it has to do with my hormones and problems related to it. <sigh>

Apr
28/08
Birth Control – What Option?
Last Updated on Tuesday, 5 January 2010 08:37
Written by Melinda
Monday, April 28th, 2008

I went to the gynecologist this morning. He said that he does not want me to receive Depo-Provera shots. They can cause weight gain and being a bypass patient, I sure would not want to gain weight! I mean, I freak out if the scales jump up two or three pounds! I am afraid to take a birth control form that causes hungriness and weight gain. I did this before being a bypass patient, and it was awful.

He does not want me to do pills given the problems with bypass patients and absorption. He said the NuvaRing was the next option, but that often times it has the same side effects, symptoms and problems of the patch that I am on now. I said, “Well let’s try it first…” At least that would give me time to write my appeal letter to my employer… got to the pharmacy, low and behold it is not covered! I paid for it out of my pocket – almost $50! That is almost $600/yr. The Mirena is $1,000. I might just have to bite the bullet and pay for it!

I asked the doctor “In your opinion, what is the next logical or best step?” He said, “Mirena” and kind of nodded in that sad looking way that he knew I did not want to hear his news. But, it was exactly as I thought. I will write my letter of appeal, scathingly of course while trying my best to be nice yet making it plainly clear that insurance companies are out for the almighty dollar and religious organizations don’t always have the answers… its not a “one size fits all” solution. <sigh>

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Apr
23/08
Things Mama Never Taught Me
Last Updated on Tuesday, 5 January 2010 07:44
Written by Melinda
Wednesday, April 23rd, 2008

So I was getting ready for work today… and realized there are a few things about clothes that mama never taught me. I purchased a new short dress at Penneys the other evening, and found myself in need of a slip. She did teach me that you ALWAYS always wear a slip with any dress or skirt (although if its thicker than molasses, no way am I going to wear a slip! who wears a slip with a cordoroy or blue jean skirt?) I am used to the real thin nylon slips that come in halves or a whole slip where you adjust the straps. They are really slick and easy to get on. Seems not so with these new slips! They are made of microfiber and are designed to HUG your body very closely. Thus, here is the first lesson mama never taught me.

1. When wearing a slip that hugs your body like a glove, make sure someone is at home with you. Do not let everyone leave the house and THEN attempt to put the slip on! I got it stuck at my neck and under my arms and could hardly move it… then when I finally got it off, and decided to step into it and raise it from legs to neck… the straps kept falling out of the little holes and I almost had to wear it strapless!

2. When wearing a dress that has a very long zipper that extends from the buttocks to your high neck, also once again, make sure someone is at home to help you ZIP the dress! I found myself reaching and tugging and maneuvering until I think I am now one of those people who can reach their entire hands around their head. I am not sure what they are called…

But, who would have ever thought that I would actually NEED a sleek, form fitting mini skirt slip?

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