Disclaimer: The weight on the scale in the above photo does not necessarily state or reflect the weight of the owner of this site and cannot be used for black mail purposes.Well my trusty scales did exactly as I expected them to. Saturday’s 124.7 is down today to 120.1. Oh I just want to sing its praises and tell you all how proud I am to be her friend today.

I want you to know that I do allow myself about 3-4 lbs range each month during “Aunt Flow” as one OH poster recently titled that time of month. However, I have been watching as the scale went up for over a month (maybe almost two). Never has it continued to climb and quite honestly, it did not worry me at first. I did quite nicely in adjusting, reassuring myself that I know how to lose weight if in fact its due to my eating habits (which I didn’t think it was).

But then when the number didn’t start to go down in the usual expected timeframe after my period, I said “Utt OHHhhh…. Houston, we have a problem!” I did start back logging foods and scaled back a little on my food this past Sunday. Also my father reminded me of the fluid pill that I was supposed to start back on again per the gyn. I started that on Sunday and once again, scales are going down. My system has just been so messed up, etc. I’m really not THAT obsessive over my weight. But when it just kept on going up from 118, 120, 122, 124. I would surely not want it to go up past 125 as that is my “cut off”. That is the number of pounds that I don’t want to go over, and if I get up to it or close, I know that’s my signal that I need to do something!

Now why do I post these things? Why do I so openly blatantly post things about my personal feelings and ways that I view my life to the public? I really hope that by saying it out loud, bringing into the open things that we all so often keep to ourselves, that it helps someone else think “Hey! That’s how I feel! I guess what I am experiencing is normal after all.” That way you don’t feel so alone in your fears, insecurities and struggles. You know that there is someone else out there, probably a lot more than you realize, who feel the exact same way. I have come under fire and criticized and given advice for sharing so much openly. But, if it helps at least one person… my job is done – - to validate others’ feelings and experiences.

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