Written by Melinda
Tuesday, November 18th, 2008
Dictionary.com defines “Succeed” as: have the desired result; to thrive, prosper, grow; to accomplish what is attempted or intended.
Last night I had the wonderful opportunity of visiting the Succeed Program. This is the same weight loss program that I went through, lasting twelve weeks, consisting of diet, exercise, and counseling. After the class is completed, a person is then eligible to have weight loss surgery should they choose. But the program is required before our insurance will cover the procedure. I saw a room full of folks who have such a bright future ahead of them. I cannot wait to see them succeed in their weight loss journeys…
It was great to see some familiar faces, and meet new people as well. I always love sharing my story and how weight loss has changed my life. I could tell of the complications I had. I could have chosen to talk about the negative comments that I have received since introducing to the world that I was about to have the procedure done. I could have talked about hair loss, four hospitalizations, needing therapy to deal with issues such as how co-workers treated me and some of their unkind and at times stupid words. But, I wanted to share with these folks how much my life has changed since surgery.
Truly, life is so good to me. I love living! It makes tears come to my eyes, and it is so sobering to think of how I have been given a new chance at living. I say this a lot… but its so true. Before my surgery, I wasn’t living; I was merely existing. I got up out of bed every day and drug myself to work because I had to pay a car payment. I had to pay for housing. If it had not been for NECESSITY, I would have become a homebound recluse who shut myself away from the world in cold, lonely isolation. Really, emotionally I had shut myself off long ago.
But no more! I love to talk with people. I love to live. I love to go walking, shopping, out and about to see the world. Weight loss has afforded me so many opportunities that otherwise I would not have had. I wanted to scream this out loud to the world: I LOVE MY LIFE! I LOVE MY SURGERY! I LOVE MY SURGEON!
While we were there, the leader of the group told a story about a gentleman who had lapband surgery. He started out weighing 420 lbs. In eight months, he has lost down to 287 lbs. He told of how this man comes to the wellness center every day to exercise, and how he now has a glimmer of hope in his life that he can be normal… I tell you, it made me want to burst inside. The story invoked such emotion from deep within. I remember a time when my life was filled with such darkness and despair. I had lost my hope and will to live. I really thought that I would just simply cease to exist… at times I didn’t care if the breath just left me and I never woke up to another day. I could relate to the hope being returned to a desparaging soul, and I worked very hard to hold back the tears. I want to meet this man and shake his hand, tell him how proud I am of him. How he inspires me even today.
I know I’m getting all mushy and emotional. But sometimes, you just can’t help but think back. It does good for us to remember where we come from… and to hope for better and brighter futures… starting today. Now go live life! Have fun! Be joyous! Be happy! Just BE!
