My mother must have read the post from yesterday about The Million $ Question.  This morning, she said, “Now you need to remember that surgery changed your life.”  So, just want to let you all know today that I’m not unhappy with my RNY.  I guess the word is concerned.  Concerned about future problems.  Yet I also know that it’s not healthy to live a life of fear, so I will continue to read, research, take my vitamins (which I am adamant in doing) and hope my labs remain good (and that we can get those low numbers up).  ‘Nuff said!  Next subject.

I am a little more joyful today than this time last week.  And, happy.  My scales have gone down 3 lbs.  Count them, ONE, TWO, THREE!  Yesterday it appeared that my stomach didn’t feel as bloated or bulgy.  I had a THIN DAY.  This morning I looked in the mirror sideways like every morning, and oh my!  ANOTHER THIN DAY!  I felt skinny.  I weighed, and I was down another pound.  This makes me so incredibly elated.  For feeling 3 months preggo for over a year…  (thanks, Mirena) I now am beginning to lose some weight AND feel thin again.

I was to the point where I felt very fat.  I was bloated, my stomach distended, people probably thought “Yeah, there she goes…  gaining weight!  I knew it would happen!”  Sorry folks.  Melinda hasn’t been eating hot fudge cakes and big macs.  It’s just those daggone 5-7 lbs that my gyn assured me would be present as long as the Mirena was in.  I didn’t have it removed because of the weight gain, however.  Let that be a stated fact.  I had forced/resigned myself to being fluffy in my tummy IF IT WAS GOING TO WORK on other issues.  It did not.  OK.  Now that I clarified…  next subject.

Last night I bought myself some new skinny jeans and brown boots.  I can’t wait to wear them.  My friend BerriGirl (Heather) told me to stop wearing baggy clothes.  I had just gotten so distraught, and physically felt the same because of depression that I did at 251 lbs that I associated it with fat.  I took her advice, and dragged out my mini skirts, boots and clingy sweaters.  Its working – - I’m feeling better about myself.  Thanks, Heather!

I am planning on a wonderful weekend (hope you have one, too wherever you are)!  The sun is shining bright here in Tennessee today, and it makes me want to go out and DO something! Plus, I want to wear my new outfit.

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