Most of you already know (if you’ve read the blog) that I had lots of depression up until December.  Then the Mirena came out, depression improved until it was time for my monthly cycle.  THEN it was not quite so pleasant.  I saw a doctor about it yesterday and he prescribed another medication to take along side the Wellbutrin.  I’m glad that I can still take the Wellbutrin because I just fought the denial from my insurance company (and won).  Evidently, they don’t want to pay for brand name drugs if generics are available.  Anyway…

He said that I was experiencing some anxiety, it sounded like some attacks to him.  I get to where crowds make me very nervous, I cannot hardly catch my breath and my heart races.  I feel very agitated and afraid.  I guess I didn’t realize this to be the case until Tim & I were in Vegas walking around on the streets and all the people everywhere made me nervous.  I wanted to retreat to my hotel room, or at least to a much quieter and lonely place.  This was the first hint that perhaps I was having anxiety.  But, now that I look back, I see its been evident for some time.

Last Friday night, even a small episode (something really petty) “set me off”.  I had purchased a new outfit, and needed a black tank top.  It was somewhere in the house, but I couldn’t locate it.  I asked Tim if he had washed it when we returned from Vegas (I swore I had taken it with me, but really later remembered, I had not).  I grew extremely agitated, and that feeling of anxiety started in the pit of my stomach.  It started to rise as I hung up clothes in the laundry room with hopes that I’d soon get to the bottom of the clothes pile and find my black tank.  I couldn’t catch my breath, agitation grew until I exploded with profanities.  *Well…  I am not going to lie about it!*  Tim finally located it underneath a pair of his blue jeans on the dresser in the bedroom.  But, the anxiety was still present for another few hours.  I tried to tell him that it wasn’t specifically the fact that I couldn’t locate the tank.  It was just anxiety as a whole in general, and that it doesn’t take much to just set it off.

Hopefully this medication will help my anxiety, depression, and yes even some OCD tendencies!  I took the first dose last night, and I didn’t sleep very well.  This morning I had nausea really bad but I am hoping that I can adjust.  At this time, I don’t want to tell what kind it is because I have positive thoughts that it will work.  I don’t want to receive emails of how horrible this medication is…  I’d rather try it, pay close attention to my body and how I respond, and then go from there…  But I will definitely keep you apprised of my progress (or possibly digression).

A noteworthy statement from the doctor…  he was in agreement that the Mirena was not a good option for me, and is a cause of these issues.

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